& it hurts w every heartbeat

HAHAHAHAHAHA and HAHAHAHAHHA

2010-03-31T08:32:00.001+08:00

15162.) I always wondered what it would be like to be a boy. I’m kind of curious how it would feel to have a penis hanging between my legs.

(via blogsecret)

OHAI ^^

2009-09-03T19:42:00.000+08:00

I miss you stupid screwed up blogspot. Kekekekeke.

Bai!

Fickle minded

2009-07-25T02:44:00.003+08:00

http://katzy.tumblr.com/

I'm still deciding.....

<:

Crap

2009-07-22T13:49:00.002+08:00

I was bedridden since Monday night. Despite sleeping for so long hrs, I still feel fucking lethargic. And I realise, I haven't eaten anything since Monday. Surprisingly, I don't feel hungry @ all. Or rather, I don't have the appetite or rather I don't have the energy to run down my kitchen to grab food. I'm kinda sick of eating med, because those pills didn't help me in a way or two. I still feel like crap.

I'm gg back to sleep now. Bai.

x

M

2009-07-22T13:40:00.003+08:00

Ohai. I miss bby boy <3

x

_|_

2009-07-22T13:28:00.000+08:00

And if you thought previous words weren't harsh enough
'Fuck off' sure didn't have any remedy.

Spider

2009-07-15T04:42:00.002+08:00

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!

x

M

2009-07-15T04:32:00.004+08:00

After all these time, I couldn't live up to your expectations, your demands. I never felt good enough. I didn't think I deserved anything good. I feel too much, I think too much and I get so little. After so many failed attemps, I never seem to be able to quit you. Are we really drifting apart? Have you ever realise we've been talking so little lately, I wouldn't deny I miss you much. I'm sorry for all those sharp end words, I'm sorry for being harsh and I'm sorry for not laying my trust on you.

If you're not too long, I'll wait here for you all my life.

x

I don't wanna miss a thing

2009-07-14T05:00:00.001+08:00

OHAI EVERY1.

Chicken rice steamboat on Fri. I'm too lazy to upload the pics <: PICS @ http://www.facebook.com/home.php#/album.php?page=1&aid=123747&id=587560843

Bryan's crib w Nic, Jj and two sterned-face-friend of Bryan. Bryan's crib pwnz. I like ^^ Your dog pwnz x2. Self high poker and Rock Band. I swear I suck @ Rock Band. STFU NIC. I KNW. Stayed in @ hme for the whole wkend. My energy level went down to zero, in a snap. Feeling so lethagic. I just wasted my weekend just like that. Oh geez :/

Tday was well spent w best. @ our all time fav place and ate our all time fav food. Yknow I love you best. x

It's fucking 5am now, and I've gotta get up @ 9.45am. No kidding, I am gonna make it. But, I'm feelin' oh so lazy >: Oh dear, I've gotta buck^up.

x

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOEYHO

2009-07-14T00:00:00.001+08:00

(I think your this picture sipeh kawaii ^^)

Joey: i take lighter to light the candle
Joey: reach kitchen damn dark
Joey: i look at my hand
Joey: i took the highlighter instead....
Joey: FML

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA.

I swear you're dota siaoz bcuz you're spending your first hr of your birthday playing dotaz. Anyw, Happy Birthday & I'm sorry for not attending your birthday party. Hope your dreamz&wishes come true ^^

Luv, Kat
x

M

2009-07-13T04:25:00.006+08:00

There were the many failed attempts at happiness, but I knew now that I never did let you go. Or rather, we didn't let each other go. Everything I did, there was a shadow of you, close behind.

The anger, the spite, the hurt, the lies, everything, everything about us, killed us. But can we turn back the hands of time? And go back to square1? I still remember those times you never fail to make my day. Will you still be there to do the same all over again?

The 5th
x

Waiting

2009-07-12T06:07:00.007+08:00

I certainly hate waiting. I've been waiting for hours, and the things to keep me occupied is drying up. Despite feelin' tired 4hrs ago >: Lesson learned, don't fucking wait.

BAI.

SO FUCKING ADORABLE!!

2009-07-12T05:38:00.002+08:00

Buck up

2009-07-12T05:13:00.004+08:00

I flunked my Costing paper, I was already expecting that. Where's the motivation? The drive to study, to scored every single paper w flying colors? I was so motivated and disciplined previously isn't it? Fatigue sets in and my vision gets blurry. I feel like giving up and yet I know I cant. I have already come thus far. I better start kicking some ass before it's too late to regret.

Pops took my cellphone away. Despite warning me umpteen times, I just brush it off w a smile. This is what I get, for turning a deaf ear >:

And yes, I've come to realise I haven't seen mummykinz for days. She approached me today and told me she dreamt of me dying. Oh dear, mummykinz? Drama mama much? But she came to tell me how upset she was. That split second..... Aw.

I'm sucha dissapointment.

x

Can't you see, you belong w me.

2009-07-09T02:16:00.001+08:00

Help me sleep please this bad insomnia is killin' me. I've been sleeping for only 2 pathetic hrs for 3 consecutive days! >: This semester, time seems to be eating me up. They go on and on and I desperately play catch up. I'm so lost, but I'm still lazing around like a coach potato. I tend to feel a nagging need to succeed, but it doesn't last. The fucking irony.

I'm counting down for doomsday, whereby all the major papers come stacking up higher. So fucking not feelin' it. Apparently, I'm 5percent prepared for tmrw's Costing paper. But I'm gonna burn midnight oil in order to get my Frolickz treat ^^ I like the thrills of getting rewards after all the hard work I've putted in something. I feel like a little girl once again.

I shouldn't be camping @ twitter, facebook anym. I'm off to study, or rather. I'll try (grins)

x

Stuck w each other

2009-07-09T01:57:00.000+08:00

Luv y'all!
x

2009-07-07T04:57:00.000+08:00

So confused it's like I'm lost

x

Do you remember the 15th?

2009-07-07T04:55:00.001+08:00

Leave the past as it is. And we look to now, and tomorrows. I want to wash away all the pain of today and yesterday. But, can I? Play out the tragedy in full or leave it as it is. Unfulfilled in its sadness. As cliche as it sounds the world is against me.

It's fucking 5am in the morning, and I'm going berserk. I'm afraid to sleep because I don't want to wake up alone and remember.

x

Save me, save my soul

2009-07-07T04:24:00.004+08:00

I'm upset. So many assignments and papers piling up. Oh God, it's just the first day of school. And I'm so not feelin' it? School is wicked, fucking wicked. Theres a paper coming up later on, I haven't touched on it >: And not forgetting, theres another on Thursday. Fuck it, fuck fuck fuck fuck. I've got no idea why I'm awake @ sucha hr despite having school the next day. Drained out, but I'm not willing to sleep just yet.

I'm so frustrated, so fucking frustrated. Its so bad I swear I could just shaft a gun up my throat and bust my brains out. I need a helping hand, some1?

x

I feel for you, I ache for you

2009-07-06T05:43:00.003+08:00

You sian = Me sian

Easy equation to understand?
So cheer^up. Whatever it is, no matter what I'll be there.

x

4 in the morning

2009-07-06T04:21:00.007+08:00

Cranky.

Pops forgot to pass me my allowance for school later on, or rather I forgot to remind him bout it when he came home. I'm feelin' real broke and my ez-link card is still w best. In other words I've gotta pay for the transporation and for my meals. Fucking awesome.

And not forgetting, and my maid's not home so I've got no idea where the fuck did she left my uniform for later on. Okey, I'm so screwed. Apparently, my headache and fever is a bitch. I feel hot now and I feel cold the next moment. I know I should stop whining but my ulcer hurts, some jerk elbowed me @ PH yesterday. Fucking not funny sia.

In about 5hrs time I'll be in skool. Omgeez, I should stfu. Bai.

My key of happy-ness are nothing out of the ordinary.

2009-07-04T07:23:00.002+08:00

How can I start my day and end w/o your text? I feel so out of place. x

P.S: My gastric and headache is a killer >:

Feverish and splitting headache.

2009-07-04T04:47:00.000+08:00

Waking up in the middle of the night isn't funny >: My head hurts; pills, they are my new best friends. Because, darling, they help you cope with everything and anything.

x

Point forms

2009-07-02T06:50:00.000+08:00

First thing first, Happy 18th Birthday Frz!

Roxy Tomyum banmian w Amanda.
McDonalds w Cheryl.
Project project project, not fruitful.
Ngee Ann Poly, 3on3.
All over Clarke Quay.
Bungee jump = cheap thrill ftw ^^
Home sweet home.
Internet connection fucking screwed up >:
Prata w Jehian and Jasper. (JASPER TREAT, 10q!!!!)
Fucking cold jokes, lame jokes, retarded jokes.
Morning madness, 3G w Nicholas.
Home sweet home.

x

Change

2009-07-02T06:46:00.003+08:00

I'm sorry. Why did things turn out this way? I wish I was wiser. Then maybe I could have had it all, instead of losing it all. Now things have changed. I feel so wretched. Why can't we be how we used to be and pretend nothing of all these had happened. It isn't me, it's you. I've been trying hard. Real hard.

All I can say is, I'm sorry for everything.

x

2009-07-01T03:36:00.002+08:00

No, don't cry. You don't wanna wake up w puffy swollen eyes isn't it?

Chin up Kat
x

2009-06-30T00:38:00.002+08:00

>:
BAIBAI

Brighten my day

2009-06-29T07:05:00.004+08:00

jeannifer says:
i love you
hahhaha

I fucking miss you hun >:

I've got the weirdest dream you can offer.

2009-06-29T06:43:00.004+08:00

Because I woke up crying.

x

Angsty

2009-06-29T06:41:00.000+08:00

I met someone yesterday. Someone whom I haven't seen for a long time. Someone that is always there, be it happy or sad. Always there.

And he said this "You changed alot, not the Kat I knew last time"

Did I really change? I rather not know the answer. I honestly wonder how much do I actually know about myself. As I stare through the starry night with the skeletons still in my closet, the silent breeze of wind suddenly seems so alive.

And, I havent found the exact sole reason to be happy from within. So someone please enlighten me?

x

A tribute to Michael Jackson

2009-06-28T18:10:00.001+08:00

Definitely second that!

x

It seems to pass incredibly slowly

2009-06-27T02:54:00.007+08:00

Time is relative. I know I'm not the first to realise it and far from the most famous, and my realisation had nothing to do with energy or mass or speed of light or anything else Einstein might have postulated. Rather, it had to do with the drag of hours while I waited for you doing partially nothing. Geez.

I hate you and I adore you at the same time.

x

Signs

2009-06-27T02:30:00.000+08:00

Oh dear..

2009-06-25T07:32:00.002+08:00

I fucking caught Transformers tday. 10q Sharon for booking the tixs for us ^^ Luv you okey?

Random note. I'm craving for Coke, and I'm missin' some1.

x

M

2009-06-25T07:05:00.003+08:00

Love never dies a natural death. It dies because we don't know how to replenish its source. It dies of blindness and errors and lies. It dies of weariness, of witherings, of tarnishings.

I fell so hard when you first left. But now, I'm happier than ever.
Trust me hun.

x

Zane

2009-06-24T04:41:00.002+08:00

Hi, this is my 11 yr old brother. And I'm 18 this yr. FML.

P.S: Blog about screwed up Genting trip another day.

x

You think I know nothing? I know it all.

2009-06-19T03:16:00.000+08:00

I slept for barely 2hrs, or rather just bout' an hr plus. Mummykinz came into the room yelling @ sissy. Awesome. Well, I'm still hyper active despite the fact that I slept for so lil hours! And I had a long day. Kat = Wonderwoman.

Oh yes, I'll be out of town today till Sunday I guess? I still feel damn reluctant to go. But crap, its too late to back out now. Well, I need a breather too.

And I fucking haven't pack my bag yet. I'm too lazy to move my bum.

P.S: Bitesized, you say you're gonna miss me xinfinite. Mark your words <:

x

Writing on the walls.

2009-06-18T11:35:00.000+08:00

Rebel = crap. The rampaging hordes of party clubbers fitting their way around the dance floor. The guys, I find the tangible smog of desperation makes me feel a little ill. And oh, not forgetting. The music suck too. Or maybe I'm just not feelin' it? I don't particularly like club-magnets. Poseurs -not that those who club are poseurs, but poseurs do club. Period. But the girls - Peixian, Sharon, Yuyu, Eileen, Gen and Huichin made it enjoyable. 10q bitches!! Oh yes, garlic chilli made my day too. McDonalds ftw ^^

It's fucking 11.35am and I'm still wide awake. Some1 gotta save me from this insomnia.

x

2nd warning letter

2009-06-17T03:28:00.000+08:00

Oh fuck yea, I received my 2nd warning letter. Fucking awesome isn't it? Plz, save the earth. Stop sending in letters. Save me from my Pops nagging @ me too.

Fuck skool. Gimme a break man.

Seasons come and go.

2009-06-17T03:03:00.006+08:00

Oh yesterday. I've been busy loving people, breaking hearts and trying to hold on to happyness. Time teaches me things. And I've been holding on to the things with the wrong reasons.

I'm all strung out for now. I feel as appreciated as a can of old beans. This is like one of those times when you used to try your guts out for gold star stickers for your homework and when you get them, you feel cheated, because you realise how gold star stickers are useless as hell and insincere - you can get them anywhere, and it's cheap.

x

OI!

2009-06-17T01:29:00.001+08:00

Should I start linking people?
Should I insert a tagboard?

Yes/No?

Doubt eats away at me everyday.

2009-06-16T02:13:00.003+08:00

Lies after lies after lies. Cut me some slack hun. Cause I had enough of all these "white lies" you call it. I've been living in self denial long enough, and I need a slap back to reality now. So spare me the hallmark bullshit. Period.

FML.

2009-06-12T21:43:00.007+08:00

I didn't attend skool for this whole fucking week. Self-declared holiday <: That spells trouble for myself. If I'm gonna receive a 2nd warning letter. I am so dead. FML.

P.S: Amanda, I'm so sry, couldn't get up >:

2kool4skool

2009-06-10T22:37:00.000+08:00

fuck, theres skool tmrw. but i'm oh-so-lazy to attend.

Ho seh bo?

2009-06-10T22:11:00.000+08:00

(Missing Derrick,Jehian,Nigel&Boon)

Ohai! I'm back from chalet. & I came back w a total for 6 blueblacks on my leg, another on my head & my whole body is aching, this is so not funny. I shall cut all the crap that happened. I had a blast. I shall not complain ^^

And not forgetting, Happy Birthday Kansie!!

M

2009-06-10T22:04:00.000+08:00

If you knew what you wanted, perhaps I wouldn't be so lost. If you knew to ask the right things of me, I'd say yes, gladly. Sometimes honesty is refreshing. Sometimes it feels better not to act, to pretend that everything is ok and that I am strong. Take my tears and my fears in your stride, darling.

x

Let you go

2009-06-08T21:24:00.000+08:00

My heart grew heavy and my mind went blank. I reminisce about the past, whine about the present and cry for the future. Just what is going to happen?

Over the past few days, things have been happening for no rhyme or reason, absolutely no rhythm to its madness. Some worthy of us spending a few moments to savour the stupidity of the situation and yet some just a complete waste of time.

x

Noticing you

2009-06-05T00:23:00.000+08:00

Life's been good, in fact. Hella good.

Pops finally sign up my new line & got me a new phone! I've got a whole lot of programs lined up for the holidays! XCITEDDDDDDD.

I'm a happy girl now.

Uh-oh.

2009-06-03T01:22:00.000+08:00

I overslept again tday. Miss Chan was kind enough to ring me up to inform me some big shot is coming into class tmrw @ 8am. In other words, I can't skip class ): Fucking 8am. I juz got home not long from L4D. Time check, its 1.45am now. I juz finish washing up & I'm feeling v hungry. I feel like ordering Macs, but I'm hesitating. Oh crap...

Some1 help me!!

Feeling it,

2009-06-01T21:17:00.000+08:00

6inch Subway Meltz w lettuce, honey mustard&BMT sauce.
Yoshinoya Beef Bowl w Beef Soup.
Starbucks Tall Mocha Frap/Chocolate Chip
3hrs of L4D marathon w crazy bunch of enthusiastic people.
Overnight Mahjong w m8s.
Catching l8 night movies.
Next season of Champions League.
Fisherman's Friend Apple&Cinnamon Lozenges.
Hitting the crub w Amanda&Cheryl luv this Sat.
Great Singapore Sales!
A stalk or two of roses&sunflowers.
Steamboat&Chomp2 sessions.
Money
Money
Money
Money
!!

x

Hi June

2009-06-01T20:16:00.000+08:00

Times flies. They go on and on and I desperately play catch up. My sense of well-being is inversely proportional to the doses of reality I receive each day.

Ytd marks the last day of May. May's a bitch. Leave the past as it is, I just look for nows and tomorrows.

To M,

I'm glad to see you living well, and happy. It's no longer about what you've done, what I've done and what the fuck we've done. We've lived in the past for far too long and let all that tomorrows slip away.

There were the many failed attempts at happiness, but I knew now that I never did let you go. I had to change for your love. But little did you know that, love, would and did, change me. All you had to do, was love, sweetheart. From now, I hope you love. I forgive you for breaking me, so thoroughly. And now, will you forgive me, for all the wrongs that I've ever done.

Love,
Kat

Fickle minded

2009-06-01T20:03:00.000+08:00

Ohai!

I'm switching back to blogger bcuz my lappy is screwed & I can't post properly in my livejournal >:

Gone.

2009-01-15T23:07:00.004+08:00

Blogspot bores me.
Old is gold. You know where to find me. And if you don't, ask. But an answer, you might not get.